When life fucks you over, fight back, find your friends, and fly.
If you don't like your current existence, change it.
There is no use being stagnant and going broke by staying somewhere that doesn't make you happy. You have to put your time in anywhere to get established, that's obvious, but there's no use in trying to fit in a place that requires you to shave so much of yourself away. That's a puzzle that you don't want to be a part of. Fix it.
Fight Back
Get proactive. No good comes out of wallowing in your loathing. No to mention, mild depression is a sneaky and crafty villain that will waste no time creeping up you to engulf your life. Make a plan, do whatever you have to furnish your next step. And then take it.
Find Your Friends
If you're too proud to ask, like I am... Swallow it. Ask. Remember all of the people that said, "If you need anything, just ask?" find these people, and START. ASKING. Most people will do what they can to help, it may not be the fix-all answer you were searching for but take what you can get while it's available. Rome wasn't built in a day; so why would you expect your life to be?
Fly
This is it. Take a breath. Look around. Jump. Yes, it will be scary. Yes, you will feel like you have no idea what you have just done, but you will have made a change. That's what matters. Proactivity is always a plus. Norman Vincent Peale said "Empty pockets never held anyone back. Only empty heads and empty hearts can do that."
It doesn't take a full pocket to have a full heart or a full mind, it only takes a full commitment to YOU.
YOU decide what you love, YOU decide what makes you happy, and YOU give you worth.
Do what you love. Love who you love. Be who you are.
Everything will work out in the end. If it's not worked out, it's not the end.
Fly far, and fly free my cherubs.
Love and life to you all.
